mylifeandme

actually its my 2nd week, i just got busy with things and such that i didn't have time blogging. you see at first day i wasn't able to attend my class because i thought there won't be any classes. stupid me right? LOL. so back to the topic, i met a classmate of mine named Angie at the first day, both of us don't know what the hell we're gonna do, i ask her "what now?" then she said let's ask the guard. so there we ask the security guard of our corresponding building, then he said that there won't be any classes that day. but what the F*CK! on the 2nd day, my classmate asked: "why didn't you attend the first day of our classes?" and i was shocked. stupid security guard telling us there won't be classes. and there, i missed the first day of my college life. sh*t it was.

so there its is. nothing more interesting happened. just pure stupidness, weirdness, and awkwardness. well that's my life. nothing interesting. BORING.

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i got fed up with abnormality there, it's like a dungeon! LOL. kidding. hmm, let me say it's kinda fun because i had my cousins with me. every day and night we bond like were friends or barkadas. we talked about love, foods, fitness, outfits and more! we even reminisce our childhood oops! and don'ts! ha-ha!

well it all started when my family and relatives decided to have an outing last April 18. right then suddenly mom and dad told me that after the outing im going to be left out on tagaytay. then and there i agreed, it's boring in here! really. i spend my whole day reading novels pocket books and playing online games or chitchatting with some friends. so boring eh?

so there, the first week was a bit busy with chores and things, my granma have a maid but she didn't appeard the first whole week of my vacation there-don't know why, it was tiring yet not very beacuse there's a background music while we were cleaning. were like baliw beacause me and my cousins were dancing and singing while doin our chores. weird right?

there was some exciting part too! my suitor visited me there, well im not being mayabang or something but he's so handsome, and kind, and talented, and ALL! ofcourse he give me the giggles! especially the part when he sang a song for me while playing a guitar, ain't the sweetest? :) but sad to say were not us, i mean, i haven't said my sweet 'yes' to him. my mom and dad reminded me that i should focus on my studies first. strickly no boyfriends! awful rule. o well.. their the boss. i can pursue what i want. i'll just wait for the right time, rather he has to wait for the right time.

so soon im home again. my real home not-so-sweet home. hope i'll have my next year vacation there. i wish. done with my feel-free life. jailed again here. bla bla bla. :(

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I can't believe it!!! it's like just a BIG dream came true! i passed at UST!
OMG! i thought i won't be able to make it! but i did! really!

well for me its the best news i heard so far.

uhm.. but i still got a problem. my report card is still in hold. it's because until now me and my group mates haven't finished our thesis yet. [pity us] LOL.

well actually it's not funny. argh! i hate that idea. the idea of i can't get my report card yet i have to reserve for enrollment at UST this coming April 17.

I'm hoping to get my report card before it turns 17.

wish me luck*

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OVER weirdness. LOL. The reunion on my mom's side and my dad's side was held on the same exact date! Well obviously [for those of my relatives] we went to my mom's reunion. Hmm.. Kinda fun, yea. i can say its fun. But not that fun. Haha! Confused?

Uhmm.. Okay lets go to the main topic. Yea we went to my mom's, [mom wins] because first and for most we didn't have to think of the transportation expenses [we do have a car, i meant the expense we need for the gas] because its VERY, i tell you, very near from our house, and i think its the first time we had a reunion on my mom's side. But they said after, they'll be continueing it once a year.

The games was a lot of fun, ofcourse i didn't join, too shy, maybe. The most fun part was when the "seniors" were the one whose playing. Seriously they did play! The fact that they are all boys and they are ALL drunk! Haha. can't help smile whenever it comes up on my mind. Back on what i was saying, the "seniors" played "hep hep horay" but we have our own version. FUN the first time this summer did i had!

Second thing i won't forget was my big brother. He's a bit drunk ofcourse. Never imagine he'd sing! Gosh! I know he has a band, but i never imagine a silent kind of guy [especially my brother] who would have the guts to sing in a crowd! It's worth it anyway, i think. I don't know if someone gave him a cash prize.

LOL. i remember that my mom was nominated as a secretary of the year. Haha! Funny, and still super weird :)) But sad to say my dad was so tired from his job that he wasn't able to attend the reunion. :(



-wonder if what happened to my dad's reunion. hmm..

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waaaa!!!! its been a week (i think) since our graduation. I'm so bored! nothing to do at home but net surfing , chit chatting, texting and reading! I've read 3 books 5 times again and again! GOSH! I'm going insane in here.

Even i want to go and hang out, i can't. I don't have someone with me that i can go with.
Argh! hope summers over. I don't even feel what they call "fun summer". I can't even feel the summer thingy, it's raining.

What kind of vacation is this anyway?


SO BORED TO DEATH!

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This is what i always say to myself. "goal over emotion" meaning i have to set aside love matters or other emotional matters to achieve my goal. so true right? if you want to achieve something believe me, its possible. but only one thing will ruin it, and that's your emotions. have you ever wonder, if your still a teenager, that your too young for that love thingy? see for your self that you can do anything yet, your still young to be committed to someone, and your too young t fall in love. as they say "love is the slowest form of suicide" trust me its a fact. see for yourself that your hurting with very low reasons. like your jealous not knowing that its his or her cousin. your hurting just because of simple reasons! mind over heart! think deeply what is really your goal.

I'm not saying that don't fall in love. what I'm saying is think of the consequences, if your not selfish enough. have you noticed that when you and your partner love someone yet everybody's being hurt? we'll your a selfish, wish to be unborn human being. believe. first people that you'll hurt is your family. sometimes they show that it's okay for them but really, it's not. second is the supernumeraries, we'll lets say they're not really extra guys. but see to it that your hurting people around you. for myself, i don't want to be selfish anymore. i want to be more vigilant on choosing what path would i take. but i made my decision, and it's my goal that i choose. i want to live a better life. i want to be a better person. and last thing, there's too many time for love. if they don't come at all, well it's destiny.

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i don't know why, but for me it's just my happiest day. this day is a nemesis-free day for me lol. but kidding aside it is. i didn't feel any anger to anyone today. hope all my day is like this so overwhelming for me.

today.. i had fun at jollibee, at the grocery, and at the mall. great isn't it? i'm having fun again at last! but i'm not used to this. it's like what they said, too much happiness overflow a river of tears. whew. hope its not.

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idk what's with me. so many problems. i wonder why is all of this happening. im being a good girl as far as i can remember.

first friends.
they just disappear one by one. well its kinda hard to admit but.. it hurts me a lot. friends are very important to me because seldome i have one. that's why i treasure every friend i got. yet in just a snap this happened? what the- all i can say is suit yourself. i didn't do anything wrong. they suddenly put distance to me. argh! then now she still have the guts get mad at me? what was she thinking. of all we've been through? now this? well as of now i don't want to reconcilliate. if your mad at me now then FINE! im strong enough than you'd ever imagined. im not going to lessen my pride, especially when i know IT'S NOT MY FAULT!

second family.
im having a hard time to ride with them. they're just so bossy as they can be. and i hate that. they juss fuss around, scold at me when their not in the good mood. they also think of themse;ves as a perfect model. people do mistakes right? then why are they like that? just a simple mistake and then bam! there goes the "ceremony". it iritates me a lot you know. who doen't? grr.

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This day was so fun! Although i have some problems. My clasmates are so crazy! One where pulling others pants. Since it we where wearing our P.E. uniform, it's easy for them to pull it down. One of my classmates is so clever. He wore shorts under his pants so if ever someone pull his pants no one will see his undies. LOL!

After our "down the pants" game, they again started throwing crumpled papers everywhere!

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Whew! Paper fight was fun! I never imagined at this age, senior students, would do that. lol. My classmates are so childish. Emmanuel, the very girly boy in our class got the most hit of paper. Then there was the boys vs girls, of course! The girls in our class didn't let the boys win. And that's what we called "girl power" lol. That was before our research class. Good thing we cleaned our room fast before our teacher step in our room or else, we're all dead. After that there was our (for me) boring research class. That subject was all about making a thesis. So boring.
BTW: "im not included on those who threw papers, i was just watching"

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